Goodbye~ luv

edward and bella

My Dearest Edward,

I feel your sweet poison rushing through my tender, aging veins, every beat of mine heart reminds me your still there. Somehow though it seems to be fading, like an immunity has begun to flow through these same delicate veins, subsiding, overstepping, smothering “it” lil by lil cleansing away a separation of red and white cells.. Plasma’s begin to disburse your venomous serum. As I bleakly traverse the property  a succumbing sunrise entranced  me; I imagined a place where two were one, a realm of imagined time. Where souls, “ours” cut the ominous void in distance. Collapsing together upon the soft mossed forest floor, simply laying caressed in conversations, in perception of us only. No one else would understand, at that pause in time, I was suddenly  mystified by what is not, nor will ever be… I started to deliberately walk again, only to find I was home where I began.  Heart still beating, muddy soles, I open the door. Listlessly crossing the threshold,  a solitary tear finds its way to the brazen floor, these hazel eyes have shed your last tear! The door of reality, it closes, leaving you outside. Strangely I somehow feel fine or do I?

Eternal Luv,

Bella

A.T. ~I couldn’t allow what hurt me to influence my decisions anymore, It was too little too late. I had to do what was right now. Edward would never see me shed another tear

~ Eclipse~

Nite Notes 2016

Copyright 2016  by Belinda Mercado no reproduction without prior consent

“Forgiveness”

“Forgiveness”

 

It is March of nineteen seventy-eight, a time of immense loss. I recall it as being a premature spring. Our intimate community of Nicosia, Illinois, was slowly awakening in the remnants of the muddy snow.  Drifts of purple crocus and brilliant yellow daffodil lay in careful scheme among infinite fields; adeptly they reach from beneath the massive dormant oaks. Fragrant aromas of spring flourished in the air.

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I Have A Succulent Now, So You Will Treat Me With Respect — Thought Catalog

Isabela KronembergerListen up, peasants. I have a fucking succulent on my windowsill now. Do you understand what this means? I’m going to be insufferable about it. The succulent is the universal symbol that I’m transitioning into Fake Adulthood—a stage of my life where I do things like buy cook books from Anthropologie but still don’t…

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You Owe Me An Apology! — Edge of Humanity Magazine

Written by: Carioca Da Gema We Americans love an apology. If it is owed to us we will ask for it, we will demand, and we will pursue until we get it. The lack of succeeding in receiving one will make some of us lose sleep and tell others about the ordeal. While […]

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A Narcissist does not have any internal or normal functioning mechanisms – simply put they have totally disconnected from internalized feelings. Their whole being is a working mechanism (or a façade) and it lacks all empathy, emotion, and the ability to bond with other human beings. They have disassociated from anything internal that actually defines them because even they realize that it is faulty and they need other mechanisms to function in a real world! — After Narcissistic Abuse

From my Book – From Charm to Harm and Everything else in Between with a Narcissist! @http://www.amazon.com How does a person with normal empathy wrap their head around a Narcissist? They don’t with any sense of normalcy. What words are appropriate – did we love a person or did we love a Narcissist? Now […]

via A Narcissist does not have any internal or normal functioning mechanisms – simply put they have totally disconnected from internalized feelings. Their whole being is a working mechanism (or a façade) and it lacks all empathy, emotion, and the ability to bond with other human beings. They have disassociated from anything internal that actually defines them because even they realize that it is faulty and they need other mechanisms to function in a real world! — After Narcissistic Abuse

There is no such thing as a normal or real relationship with a Narcissist, and you can only learn this the hard and painful way. If the perpetrator is/was a person you loved, admired, or looked up to as a role model, or a wife, husband, parent, guardian, friend, relative, etc., you don’t understand the real depth because most of the time you loved this person, trusted them and wanted to believe in them — you went the extra mile for them and that is what makes this abuse so horrendous when the truth is apparent. — After Narcissistic Abuse

From my Book – From Charm to Harm and Everything else in Between with a Narcissist! @ https://www.amazon.com Being a victim of Narcissistic abuse is a severely traumatic life experience that you are dealing with by yourself. If the perpetrator is a person you loved, admired, or looked up to as a role […]

via There is no such thing as a normal or real relationship with a Narcissist, and you can only learn this the hard and painful way. If the perpetrator is/was a person you loved, admired, or looked up to as a role model, or a wife, husband, parent, guardian, friend, relative, etc., you don’t understand the real depth because most of the time you loved this person, trusted them and wanted to believe in them — you went the extra mile for them and that is what makes this abuse so horrendous when the truth is apparent. — After Narcissistic Abuse

from The Mythologies Of Love… ‘Unearthly View’ — Dean J. Baker – Poetry, and prose poems

Missing you, I step off the edge of routine; constrained, yet held by boundaries, the skeleton of this costume, this envelope of flesh where I cannot sleep or rest, almost a dream awake before the sudden drop to the flatlands, the crash soft, epidermal; sloughing off another season […]

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Growing Up Among Hunters — Edge of Humanity Magazine

Photographer Clare Benson is the Edge of Humanity Magazine contributor of this photo essay. These images are from her book/project ‘The Shepherd’s Daughter‘. To see Clare’s body of work click on any image. The Shepherd’s Daughter is an ongoing series that began in 2011. Deeply rooted in my family […]

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Women Have More Active Brains Than Men — Neuroscience News Updates

A large scale SPECT imaging study reveals women’s brains are significantly more active in more regions than males, including the prefronal cortex and limbic areas. Visual and areas associated with coordination were more active in males, researchers noted.

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10 Reasons Jon Snow and Daenerys Might End Up Together on Game of Thrones Even Though It’s Kind of Weird — TIME

Warning: This post contains spoilers for season seven of Game of Thrones. Daenerys Targaryen and Jon Snow finally met on Sunday night’s episode of Game of Thrones, and their initial interaction was icy at best. But isn’t that how all storybook romances begin? Elizabeth and Darcy, Harry and Sally, Han and Leia: Their seething anger…

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Brain Lays Foundation for Reason in Childhood — Neuroscience News Updates

According to a new Journal of Neuroscience study, strong structural connectivity between the rostrolateral prefrontal cortex and inferior parietal lobe in young children is associated with improved reasoning in adulthood.

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